Intentional Delusion of Grandeur

As I was working towards opening Campus Creamery, things were pretty difficult, and I often romanticized or dramatized certain aspects of my life as a way to deal with everything going on at the time. It’s hard to describe exactly what affected my perspective. I basically have this version of myself in my head, like I’m the main character in a movie, and I give extreme weight to everything - like my life is an odyssey.

Even that phrase I just used, “achieve greatness”, sounds a little dramatic for a kid with an ice cream store, but that’s what it is. I feel like I need to set my goals that high because otherwise, when things get hard, I’ll fold, and I don’t want that to be an option. While I think this mentality serves me well in many respects, when expectations clash with reality, it can hurt.

When my life is put through this lens, it becomes hard to live in the moment. I too often think about

It’s not just the ice cream store, though. This extends to many aspects of my life, especially the gym.